WOW!! It's been a minute since I've written in this thing. Over a month! That's fuckin nuts! I guess I feel as though what I write here needs to be sensored. So, for those of you out there who know the whole situation then you'll understand, I guess.
I overthink everything. I think about the same thing over and over and over again until it finally goes away. This situation that I have here I am overthinking to death. I'm not just letting it be. I'm not just allowing myself to be completely happy. I'm not letting myself go.
This was never meant to happen. This was never supposed to be what it is. I never wanted to be like this again.
Adoration. Needing. Wanting. Pain. Pleasure. Happiness. Anger. Sadness. Hard. Easy. Fast. Slow.
Let it be. It is what it is. It will become what it is meant to become.
Don't let it go.