Who's allergic to neckbone meat?? That was joys sisters response to what people are allergic to. Neckbone meat. Again, who's allergic to necbone meat!?
It was a good night after a fucked up day. Takin care of my dad is gettin harder and harder. Everyday I talk to him I want to give up. Then the guilt sets in and I realize that no one else is there to take care of him. If I left it up to anyone else he wouldn't have anything. I always hope that he'll stop because after all I am his daughter. He should treat the situation better than the last. I'm not the only one involved anymore. Joy's involved now. She actually fought with him yesterday because she felt helpless. He took advantage of me not being there. I felt horrible. I said some fucked up things to him that I needed to be said but knew that they would go in one of his ears and out the other. I feel bad for trying to better my life. I don't regret moving here because of what I have now but I know that I would if I didn't have Joy. I know that I would have thrown the towel in like months ago if it wasn't for her.
She's taking up appraising more now for the money. I hope she doesn't hate it and regret it. I just hope she's happy.
So, training for the bank is going alright. I've made some cliques per se. Funny thing. Katies ex nicole who I couldnt stand at one point is in my training class. Her and I will be working together. Small fucked up world I guess.
"These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's tonight
Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late"
I want eminems new cd that comes out on tuesday but my car cd player is broken. I hate it.
i feel : stressed